Its been cold out there, frozen like ice. Makes sense doesnt it. Maybe life would of been okay, straight to the front doors exit, next left takes you to California. Been on some extra shit, got pistols shooting out my pockets and making a racket. People calling police and making a scene. Lets make this last. Im on top of the world filled with doubt and dreams. Thinking its okay to fuck around and forget where my head is. Its surrounded by voices, that music you call your friend. Only hearing the same stories day to day, makes a motherfucker start to rethink, retrack the steps. I been seeing myself dig this deeper hole as i walk up the hill to what he would call himself, the lord. Only digging myself deeper til i let go. My minds going crazy, i cant seem to stop time and think. Got gucci shoes on my feet, covered in mud, but thing is, i just got them yesterday. Ruined i should say, already its a bad day. Decided to take a ride and foreclose my thoughts for awhile, not believing in myself lately, its crazy. As soon as i get on the highroad, i slam my brakes and rebrace. Traction loses control and my car goes its own way. Hit like a cannon ball wrecking trees throughout this world. Fuck, im out. Didnt realized the next minute was about to be life changing. Rushed to the hospital, cops thinking i may have a concussion, questioning me things over and over, let it go. Stuff is foggy, making me loopy. Laying down, tired, exhausted, someone walks in and yes i expected. Hair wavy like brown gold flakes flying off a wave. Makes me take a triple look, whoa, eyes like a choclate lava cave. Voice softer then any ASMR channel. Makes me smile. Didnt realize how quick my life could of gone. A flash of light, never heard from again, its sad, how i didnt expect that, but its life, isnt it. Holding my hand, warm and softx maybe a blanket, could've been. Next few days, we talk and never get bored of conversation. I guess i should of known, but i wasnt aware. Been hurt to much to share. My life seems flipped, but its been switched to a better path, to open up my eyes and see. You was there for me at my worst and you care, like an angel just fell into my lap. Has me tearing up every now and then, noticed how amazing you are. Makes things alot better. Rolling the ice on the table, rethinking what just happened, gots to wrap up my mind up in this tissue, its cool. Beautiful soul, beautiful soul, you didnt let go. Sometimes life feels unreal. I appreciate you being here. Because shit just got real. The typa feeling i feel, is real.